Still Not Black Enough
Somebody To Love
Black Forever
Scared To Death
Goodbye America
Tie Your Mother Down
Keep Holding On
Rock N Roll To Death
I Can't
No Way Out Of Here


Paint a shadow on my heart
In shades of ebony
Paint the sun out of the sky
That rains over me

Black sun, rain on me
I need one, black sun
Rain on me, rain on me

Tie me to my blackness there
Where I'm ever free
Taken to the dark edges of
My wicked memories

Paint my soul in indigo, and ebony for me
No colour seen in my eyes, none in my eyes
I'm naked in my misery
Emotions stripped to bone
I see inside the heart of me
It's still not black enough for me

No colour in the heart of me
No colour run in my veins
I hold the black to my breast
It bleeds over me
I can't go on till I get off
For me it's still not black enough
With darkness gone, my fear is seen
My fear is real, my fear is me

(Darby Slick)
Originally performed by Jefferson Airplane

When the truth is found to be lies
You know the joy within you dies

Don't you want somebody to love
Don't you need somebody to love
Wouldn't you love somebody to love
You Better find someone to love

Find somebody to love

Find somebody to love

Find somebody to love

When the dawn is rose, they are dead
Yes and you're mine, you're so full of red

Your eyes, I say you eyes may look like his
Yeah, but in you head, baby
I'm afraid you don't know where it is

Tears are running
Running along down your breast
And your friends baby
They treat you like a guest


There's red in my head but I don't want it
The blues were swarming there in my soul
Shadows over me and
The only colour I can paint my soul

I want black and don't fade away
I want it black forever
Inside of me, all I wanna see's
The colours in my head
I'm in black the only way
And make it black forever
Go inside and go inside and
Never come back out again

Don't colourize me
Cause I don't want it
The ravens taken over my soul
The only thing I want is
The only way I wanna go

The reds were in my head, the blues were in my soul
Swirl in my mind, never let go
Blind my eyes with a cold embrace
I'll lay my veil all across my face
Everyone I used to know
Sees me strange, sees me bold
Everthing I used to hold
Will fade away my soul

No confessions and no regrets
I'll paint the black all across my chest
Gimme darkness and gimme rest
Gimme blackness or gimme death


Grit your teeth and listen for the gun
Get in the runners block and kneel
And run the human race
That decadent decathalon and
Let the games begin for real
Stop scaring me- it's bedlam in paradise
Stop I can't see- nowhere I can hide
Scared to run, this monstrous
Marathon of fear

I run the races with a dark horse to win
Across a finish line of fear
I swim a sea of skin, afraid to drown in flesh
X-generation, revolutions here
Scared to have sex- I don't wanna die
Scared I'll be next- I'm scared for my life
Dying to live, but there ain't no way
Outta here alive- all we're all scared there's

Nowhere to run- I'm scared to death
Nowhere to hide- scared I'll be next
Oh- stop, stop, stop, stop
Nowhere to run- I'm scared to death
Nowhere to hide- scared I'll be next
Oh- stop, stop, stop, stop

Am I a prisoner of the universe?
Is destiny fixed among the stars?
Should I cry or laugh?
All I know is that
The best time to laugh
Is any time you can
Life's one big party- thrown here by God
We all get invitations- if we want them or not
It's all truth or dare and nothing is fair, no
No no
We're all scared there's

Oh, it's the decade of fear
No way out of here, no, no, no
No, no, no - no, no, no - no, no, no
Oh scream in my ears
Oh stop what I hear, no, no, no
No, no, no - no, no, no - no, no, no


I'm politically incorrect and damn proud of it
I love my country but I'm scared to death of its government
Ya believe what you read cause it's all that they give ya
Cause all of history is written by winners
I'm engaged in a frenzy of mass self-destruction
I feed upon your famine to fuel my corruption
I'm wholeselling hatred and international incest
To carnivorous hyenas in a global theft fest
I've mastered the arts of death and foreign nations genocide
And those who turn on me commit national suicide

I'm the queen of the global dream
And I rule a declining nation
I sit and watch all the violent screams
From the throne of your desperation
I killed them all and stole their land
Enslaved the blacks and slaughtered the red man
In God we trusted and I gave birth
To would be kings to rule the earth

I have more pigs than I have tits to feed
I embrace the world's phoney leaders
And hold the sucklings to my breast
And I'd fool you all as I'd feed ya
I'll prop you up then strike you down
And lick your blood up form your ground
Humpty fuckin dumpty
My empire's falling down

Breakdown, goodbye America
So long the music's died
Freedom's last hero's wasted
I made you, I'll break you
Breakdown, goodbye America
It's all gone, kiss it goodbye
There on bloody bended knees where
My nation died

(Brian May) Japanese Bonus track
Originally performed by Queen

Get your party gown
Get your pigtail down
Get your heart beatin' baby
Got my timin' right
Got my act all tight
It's gotta be tonight my little

Your momma says you don't
And your Daddy says you won't
And I'm boilin' up inside
Ain't no way I'm gonna lose out this time

Tie your Mother down
Tie your Mother down
Lock your Daddy out of doors
I don't need him nosing around
Tie your Mother down
Tie your Mother down
Give me all your love tonight

You're such a dirty louse
Go get outta my house
That's all I ever get from your
Family ties, in fact I don't think I ever heard
A single little civil word
from those guys
But you know I don't give a light
I'm gonna make out all right
I've got a sweetheart hand
To put a stop to all that
Grousin' an' snipin'

Tie your Mother down
Tie your Mother down
Take your little brother swimmin'
With a brick (that's all right)
Tie your Mother down,
Tie your Mother down
Or you ain't no friend of mine

Your momma and your Daddy gonna
Plague me til I die
Why can't they understand I'm just a
Peace lovin' guy
Tie your Mother down
Tie your Mother down.


Your sad eyes never told me
No paradise here for the lonely
But I hold on, half a heart here in my hands
Been so long, would you know me
Who's holding you, who's gonna hold me
If you want me, then I'll be your man

And I keep holding on
Holding on till you come back to me
And I keep holding on
Holding on till you run to me
Can you take me to heaven
Show me the way cause I'm no angel
I'm lost and
Can I hold you one more time
I guess me holding you was holding you down

WIll I have your memory
Or will your memory have me
I don't know, only time
Knows if I'll ever know peace of mind
Only time knows if you're mine, if you're mine

And I keep holding on
Holding on till you come back to me
And I keep holding on
Holding on till you run to me
All I can hold is a shadow of a heart that's gone
And left me shattered
I'm lost and
Can I hold you one more time
I guess me holding you
Was holding you down
I guess me holding you
Was holding you down
I guess me holding you
Was holding you down


Thunder pounding my brains in
A six string rock and roll razor
Nobody's gonna save me
The whole world drives me crazy
I hate work, I hate school
I got a case of the rock's dead blues

Friday night I'll be raging
Midnight gonna be wasted
Friday I'm raising
Hell, I'm gonna be wasted
Time to party, raise a glass
Tell everybody to kiss my ass

Let me go- dead or rock, dead or rock
Dead or rock, dead or rock
If rock and roll dies
I'll take my last breath
Rock and roll to death

Dead or rock, dead or rock, dead or rock
Pass the bullets please, dead or rock
Find me a grave, help me dig it
If rock's dead then bury me with it

Dead or rock, dead or rock, dead or rock
Pass the bullets please, dead or rock
To death do us part to my last breath
Gimme rock or gimme death


You don't have to hear my heart beat
All you need is to look into my eyes
And tell me I'm the one you heart needs
I'n the only one you run to in the night
Oh let me burn the words forever mine
Across your heart, across your mind
Take your hands and feel my heart beat
come and let me feel it in your eyes
All you have to do is touch me
Oh and lay your flame across my fire
Oh let me spread your wings and come inside
And take your heart and make you mind

Come and lay down your heart on me
All that I wanna feel is
Breathe in me
Lay down your heart on me
BFeel you inside of me
Breathe on me
Come and take me on, take me down
Oh take me all the way
There's only one way
Only one thing I need, all I need
Take me way down
Come and lay down on me


I can't laugh
I can't cry
I can't see inside of me
Don't know the reason why

I ain't straight
And I ain't high
I'm the ugly in between
Can't live and I can't die

I wanna scream
And I can't win
My life's a living soundtrack
For a human horror film

I can't feel
And I can't love
My mama never showed me how
I never was enough

I can't laugh
And I can't smile
I'll sacrifice my aged elders
To show me how to die

I can't love
And I can't feel
And my mother never loved me
Deep down she hated me

I can't fuck
I can't feel
I'm one bizzare motherfucker
What the fuck's inside of me

I'll kill the beast
So to free my soul
And smash the mirrors
That won't let me go
Oh if there's a smile that ya see
It's only the clockwork orange that's in me
I curse the darkness impassioned plea
And tear the heart out and watch me bleed
I'll sacrifice my blood for free
To satisfy the vengence that's in me
And bury the mirror that's inside me


I went away for a whole lot of days
And stripped the soul right outlaw me
Lead away in a crimson haze
The red was rain over me

There ain't no way outta here
I try to scream, I can't even speak
Why am I the only one
I can't get out and I can't go on

There ain't no way out of here
Forever red and I'm never free
Climb the wall, I can't hold on
I can't go back and I can't go on

There were faces in the dark and
In me I could not see
The mirror cracked in a million pieces
And so did I cause Johnny's me

I'll fade forever black away
I'll give all my tomorrows for just one good today
I'm numb to feel, don't know what's real
The ghost is killing me

Originally released in May, 1995 everywhere but the US.
Expeced Release in the US late 1995 or early 1996 on CMC Records

Produced by Blackie Lawless
Engineered by Mikey Davis

Recording lineup:
Blackie Lawless: Lead and Background Vocas, Lead, Rhythm, Bass, and Acoustic Guitar, Electric Sitar, Piano, Organs, and Synthesizers
Frankie Banali: Drums
Stet Howland: Additional percussion on Scared To Death and One Tribe
Bob Kulick: Lead Guitar
Mark Josephson: Electric Violin
Tracey Whitney & KC Calloway: Background Vocals

Touring lineup:
Blackie Lawless: Lead Vocal, Guitar
???: Lead Guitar
???: Bass
???: Drums

Liner Notes:

W.A.S.P. fans are unique in the sense that they appear to be, for whatever reason, willing to allow me to take them on a life long journey. You are interested in taking a walk through my mind on a regular basis, as I am with you, and you better believe that I am keenly aware that this very special relationship exists.

Although I do not consider this a "conceptual" record, there are some common threads that run throughout the piece. This record picks up where the "Crimson Idol" left off. I had stated on numerous occasions that the "Crimson Idol" had taken me on a bizarre journey, one that I wasn't sure I wanted to repeat any time soon. But the journey goes on. Not one of a suicidal icon, but of myself, and when I look back on that record I see far more similarities between Jonathon and myself than I woul have ever allowed myself to believe at the time I wrote it. Naive as it sounds, it's true. I was hiding behind Jonathon, because I didn't want to admit it to myself, much less to the world.

When I finished "Crimson" I was crazy as a "shit house rat." I hid it pretty well from everyone, but the experience of making that record all but put me away, indefinitely! Dealing with the demons of one's past is not always a pleasant theing to contend with. It wasn't until the tour was over and I could see that night after night, not only at the shows, but even more so afterwards when I would talk to many of you and you would go into detail how that record not only affected your life but was your life. I realized that I was in the same boat with many of you, and when the tour was over I came back to L.A. I was tanding on the balcony of my hotel room It was about 3 a.m., and I swear it waslike every face and every conversation I had from that tour where people had poured their hearts out to me came crashing down on me. It was like I was completely surrounded and all the voices were crying out at me all at once. I stood there and cried and screamed at the top of my lungs, something I had not done since my mother died 15 years ago. I felt like an animal in a trap, wailing from his agony (I later realized that's exactly what I was) with no way to get out. I don't remember much after that.

Born out of that experience was new insight into myself. As the song "I Can't" (recorded for these new sessions) states, "I'm one bizarre motherfucker." I am truly the strangest person I know (if you don't believe me, just ask anyone who knows me well). On one hand I have this very gently nature, which enables me to write songs like "Breathe," "Forever Free," and things like that, but.... there's another side to me. Angry, pissed off, but moreover than that, extremely dark and moody and as black as the ace of spades. I used to tell people when they asked "how did you get the name Blackie?", it was because of my hair, but looking back, I think I chose it because it best describes the dominant side of me.

Trying to be inside me (or around me) is sometimes very tough (ask above mentioned people) 'cause I aint' no day at the beach!

I am a very "angry songwriter," which is to say, I write best when I'm angry about something (or someone; see "Chainsaw Charlie," "Ballcrusher," etc.) and out of the aforementioned experience comes "Still Not Black Enough," etc. The nightmares of a lifetime have surfaced in the last few years and though I don't always like what I see, this is how I deal with it.

What the fuck makes me tick? I don't know, I'm still searching

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